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Catogery 1
BEAUTY

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MENTAL HEALTH

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FASHION

A NEW STRUGGLE

*potential trigger warning; eating disorder, body image*


The last time i was in a bad place with my weight was years ago back when my entire mental health was at rock bottom. I went days without eating and didn’t realise - i went through a phase of taking laxatives, making myself sick, loving the feeling of knowing i was so hungry it hurt. I was so skinny, but at the time i didn’t see it, i didn’t think i was skinny enough. When i see old photographs now, i can’t believe how much weight i’ve really put on, my dress size has almost doubled and it makes me feel sick.
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A CHANGE OF HEART, A FRESH START

When I first started my blog four years ago (wow, what?) my life and happiness revolved around make up. Looking at it, buying it, using it, writing about it - I was out first to get and review new releases, I spent every penny I got on building up a huge make up collection like the ones we see on YouTube. In my ‘prime,’ I was posting new content everyday because I just always had so many new products I wanted to talk about. 

Do I still love make up? Totally. I still spend money on new products etc, but I just no longer get that buzz and excitement. I don’t really like spending money on it anymore because it doesn’t bring me much joy (and it’s like £31 for a foundation, so i want to be buzzing about it.) In the past three months I think I’ve purchased about 7 new make up bits but I haven’t even posted about them on my blog because I honestly have no desire to review them, it’s so boring and tedious to me now - you may of noticed i’ve barely posted on my blog over the past few months, and that’s because I can’t even force myself to force out content, i’m fully aware my last few posts have been dull and slacking, the photography not great. 

About 6 months ago I went through a rough patch, I had no sense of identity, I didn't know who or what I was, what to wear, how to be - I honestly felt so disconnected and frustrated. I started online clothes shopping obsessively in a desperate attempt to ‘find myself,’ again and find a way to be comfortable, but still feel good. I spent a lot of money and had several breakdowns. 

Thank God, I really do believe I have now fully found my style. It has done wonders for my confidence and over all mental health, I feel much more secure and sure of myself. My confidence raising has meant I’ve been able to go to public places and shoot outfit pictures, which is huge for me. Like, a big deal. It’s still embarrassing and a bit awkward, but it gets easier each time. My Instagram content has been getting so much love and praise, whilst my blog has been forgotten about. 

So, it’s time for a fresh start. I’m not saying there’s going to be no more make up content, because there definitely will be. I just want to focus mainly on style/fashion, life, mental health etc. That’s really where my passion sits right now, and it makes me feel good and motivated. Honestly, I have never published fashion/style blog posts before - so they might not be flawless to begin with, but hopefully my passion will come through in my words and most importantly, there will be regular posting again.

Thank you so much to new followers, and the lot of you that have been here since year one. I hope this change doesn’t disappoint you if you’ve always been a reader purely for the make up.


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NEW IN MAKE UP - APRIL

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We’re saying hello to May already, crazy right? This past month has been extremely spendy, from Givenchy bags to too many Mcdonald’s - (if you want to see that side of my life, follow me on Instagram (@crtnygrdnr) But you’re all here for the makeup right? So here’s a round up of what newbies I added to my overflowing collection this month:
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SUPERDRUG'S SOLAIT FAUX TANNING LINE

superdrug solait fake tan review dry oil tan wipes dark mousse
If you know me at all, you'll know I'm all about that fake tan life. I wasn't naturally blessed with golden bronzed skin, quite the complete opposite. I've been trying out so many different products from various brands for years, I'm pretty much on a never ending search for my perfect fake tan. After months and months of using my beloved Bondi Sands Dark Foam, I just got bored and my face started to break out - so what started as a mission to find a suitable tan for my face that didn't break me out, turned into an entire tan haul. 

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NEW AND NOTEWORTHY

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I have a very love/hate relationship with that dreaded period every couple of months where you ever so conveniently run out of skincare all at once. I mean, i do love skincare - but buying it all at once is a bit of a chore, i’d rather spend my money on a new eyeshadow palette or a steak and cocktail date night. To make it a little more exciting, this month i purchased some new products to try out - and the impossible happened. I love them all. So naturally i had to share my new finds with you, they come highly recommended. (Just for reference, my skin is combination and pretty sensitive.) 
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LASER HAIR REMOVAL AT PULSE LIGHT CLINIC LONDON

pulse light clinic laser hair removal
Even though body hair is completely natural, normal and everyone has it, it's still a pretty taboo subject that nobody really wants to talk about - especially when it comes to women. It's nothing to be ashamed of, and of course if you don't want to spend every day shaving you really don't have to, it's your body and therefore your choice. However, I know for a lot of us (including myself,) shaving everyday is such a chore and can cause so many issues like razor burn, ingrown hairs, irritation etc. If like me, you like to be smooth all of the time - laser hair removal could be life changing, and I've teamed up with Pulse Light Clinic based in London to tell you about the process. 


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PRESTIGE MUM? PRESTIGE FLOWERS

prestige flowers. co.uk review
In case you didn't know, here's your last minute reminder that Mothers Day is this Sunday! Don't fret, there's still plenty of time to pick the perfect present. And what woman doesn't love receiving a good bunch of flowers? I know the women in my life (and myself,) all love being surprised with some fresh blooms - it might be predictable - but flowers don't always have to be the same old, same old. Say hi to Prestige Flowers - the answer to your bloom blues. 

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THE NEW L'OREAL INFALLIBLE PRIMERS - 'REVERSE DUPES'

loreal infallible primer shots review dupes comparison mattifying lumizing

loreal infallible primer shots review dupes comparison pore refining shaping stick foundation
If you spotted my recent drugstore haul post, (if not, read it here) you'll know that I picked up three of the brand new L'oreal Infallible Primer Shots. I chose the pore refining, mattifying and luminizing primers and over the past week using them I've been mentally pairing them all up to high end primers I already know and love. I know that seems a little odd - because usually a 'dupe,' is a cheap version of an expensive product, so I'm calling this 'reverse duping.' However, if you do love any of the high end primers in this post and are looking for a cheaper alternative or maybe just something you don't feel using everyday - you're welcome.

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LOOK FANTASTIC BEAUTY BOX - MARCH 2018 SNEAK PEEK

Look Fantastic beauty box review whats inside value for money
If you're already subscribed to the Look Fantastic beauty box you might not want to read on, because I'm about to show and tell you whats in the March box- however if you aren't subscribed and perhaps interested in investing, this might be pretty helpful. This monthly subscription box is a great way to try new products, discover new brands and to keep your beauty stash filled up. In every box there's a mixture of skincare, make up, tools and well being products from both affordable and luxury brands. There's also the option to pay for one box only, all the way up to a 1 year subscription (paid monthly at only £13.00!)

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ABH X AMREZY AND NEW MATTE BRONZERS (+ SWATCHES)

abh x amrezy highlighter review
Unless you've been living under a rock, you're probably aware of this hugely anticipated launch from Anastasia Beverly Hills. The launch saw the introduction of many new products, and although I didn't get the hyped up Soft Glam palette to add to my collection (but I will get it, trust me.) I did pick up two of the new bits. I was so crazy about this new highlighter, like I was sitting at my computer all day refreshing the website waiting for it to go live and my heart sped up at checkout in pure relief that I managed to get in line quick enough. 

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THE NEW NYX 'WORTH THE HYPE' MASCRA - RELEASING TODAY!

nyx worth the hype mascara review pictures before and after
Today marks the release of the new mascara from NYX, say hello to Worth The Hype. This mascara promises volumizing and lengthening and will cost you less than a Domino's pizza. I've been using this mascara prior to its release, so I can tell you if it's really 'worth the hype,' or something you shouldn't fret about missing out on.
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NEW IN AT THE DRUGSTORE + FIRST IMPRESSIONS

best drugstore primers
One piece of feedback I'm always getting is that you all want more drugstore/affordable products in my content, I used to be such a makeup snob i’ll admit that (and | still kind of am,) but honestly thanks to the recommendations from other bloggers last year I found some real gems that made me realise I didn't need a £30 primer everyday.  That being said, I certainly don't get the same excitement and buzz buying drugstore products than I do with high end, there’s something about spending too much money on pretty make up that just makes me feel fulfilled and ecstatic. But, I want to give the people what they want and make my content relateable for everyone, low budget or high - hence forth this drugstore haul.


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BODYFORM #PINKTICKET - WIN A VIP MUSIC EXPERIENCE!

BodyForm Pink Ticket WIN VIP Music Experience
Summer time is fast approaching, which means the music festival period is too - and whether you're a regular festival goer or there's one on your bucket list Bodyform have got you covered...literally. We all know Bodyform for their signature #LiveFearlessly slogan, and that's exactly what they want you (and a friend,) to do this Summer time. 

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WHAT'S IN MY LUSH STASH

lush bath bombs sensitive skin
With Christmas gone, I’m well kitted out with a stash of Lush goodies to see me through several pamper evenings. And to be honest, Lush products are my favourite thing to photograph and edit so it was kind of compulsory to create a post - everyone loves a Lush post, (right?) Oh and of course the typical Instagram boomerangs every time I have a bath. #Guilty. 

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LIVING HEALTHIER BY OVERCOMING VICES

One of the most important things in life is your health. You can’t properly look after the people in your family without being at the top of your game, you can’t set the right example you your children, plus, bad health can easily mean that they lose you long before they should. Being healthy can be tough in this day and age, where fast food joints are dotted about, and it’s so easy to get caught up with horrible habits like drinking and smoking. Even vegans have to make sure that our diets are full of the healthy choices; you can get vegan chocolate, cookies and cake y’know.

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HOW TO KEEP LIVING THE 'GLAM' LIFESTYLE

We must admit that in order to experience some of the best-reviewed products here and to maybe even craft a beautiful blog of your own, some investment must be made in time, money and self-awareness. The glam lifestyle is one that has fun at its core. We all love looking and feeling good from day to day, but if the core components of what makes this worthwhile are knocked out of balance, then it can be difficult for people to find utility in it. 

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A MULTI-TASKING MIRACLE

Sunday Riley blue moon cleansing balm
I'm not sure if I've spoke about this before, but if not - that's crazy. You're looking at my ultimate skincare saviour, if you have dry, dehydrated, irritated, sensitive skin - you might just adore this as much as I do. (Don't let the price tag put you off, I promise it's worth it.) 

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LOOK GOOD, FEEL BETTER

barbie x missguided silky striped dressing gown
Appearances might only go skin deep, but the effects your outer image has on your mentality can be a lot deeper. The whole reason why people spend time on their hair, makeup, on selecting clothes or picking the right cut for their face shape, is because it makes them feel better. No one spends time and money on these material things to please someone else. (Do they?) We do it because it makes us feel happy. And no matter your mental state, how can that be anything but a good thing? Somebody might tell you that you look beautiful in your frumpiest clothing, when your hair is in need of a wash, and there are bags under your eyes, and they would be telling the truth. But that doesn’t mean that you automatically feel it. 

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LUXURY MAKE UP HAUL + FIRST IMPRESSIONS

Ok, so I had a major case of the January blues/post Christmas blues a few days ago. Honestly, since Christmas ended I've felt really low, drained, no motivation, I haven't been able to get out of bed for whole days - my mood really took a battering. And you know what cheers me up and gets me excited? Shopping. Some people get drunk, I like to buy make-up. (I also bought an iPad Pro but lets not talk about that...) Anyway, I went into Debenhams without any intention of buying a thing, but I came out with three new make up products and over one hundred pound down - do I hate myself or do I love myself? I'm not sure. Damn you persuasive high end make up counter women. 


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URBAN DECAY ALL NIGHTER CONCEALER REVIEW

urban decay all nighter concealer review
I absolutely adore the Urban Decay All Nighter Foundation, so when I heard they were releasing the matching concealer I just had to get my hands on it. I picked mine up on release day in light neutral, (the shade range is huge by the way!) If I'm honest, I bought this in such a hurry and on such a hype without reading much into it first, the gorgeous packaging definitely reeled me in - because honestly I've never seen such a good looking concealer. 
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ZOELLA BEAUTY 'SNOWELLA' (WINTER 17) REVIEW

zoella bath and body products review snowella scent winter 2017
I didn't pick up anything in the big Boxing Day sales, but when I went into my local Superdrug for a box of hair dye and saw the Zoella Treasure Me box for only £20 (it was £40,) I couldn't say no. I know, I know, as a 20 year old I should not be fan girling and buying Zoella beauty sets - but here I am, doing it anyway, because honestly this product range smells amazing. It's sort of my guilty pleasure if you will. I'd previously tried products from the 'Snowella,' scented Winter collection and loved them, so I jumped at the chance to get them all over again, full sized and in a huge attractive box that I'm now using to store my hair products in. (Looks great in my bedroom by the way.)
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