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Regretful Buying

It's horrible to admit but there's many expensive beauty items I've purchased and either hated or barely used. It makes me feel a little guilty and it's also a waste of money- which is why I've learnt to do a lot of research on products before buying, as well as swatching and prioritising what I really need/want. Here's why I didn't like these products:

1. Yves Saint Laurent Babydoll Mascara, £25.00.

  • Very dry formula
  • The bristles on the wand are super short and tough
  • Doesn't create much drama, wow factor
  • No good for a night time
  • Dries up quickly
  • Doesn't appear Jet Black
2. NARS Larger Than Life Volumising Mascara £19.50.

  • Extremely hard to wipe off, even with eye make up remover
  • After removal it clumps lashes together and leaves them feeling sticky
  • Small amount of actual product for your money
  • Cannot apply a second coat due to eyelasahes being so hard and clumpy

3. MAC pigments (£37.00 for the set I found at Christmas.)

  • Large amounts of drop-down
  • Difficult to use
  • Difficult to dispense 
  • Colour fades 
  • Do not blend well 

4. NARS Copacabana Illuminator, £23.00.

I just didn't get this product, maybe I need to play around with it more and experiment, but I tried to use it as a highlighter and it just stuck to my foundation and made it appear cakey and dry. It didn't blend well into my base make-up.
It's such a pretty highlight and it's alright when using a tiny brush and applied to the cupids bow and under my eyebrows to give them some lift, even then it's hard to not leave harsh lines.

If you've tried any of these products let me know in the comments what you thought!


What is Recovery?

I often find myself asking myself what recovery really is, if it's actually achievable and how do you know when you're 'recovered?'
It's a word that's used a lot regarding mental health and as much as I like to think I am in recovery, sometimes it all gets a little too overwhelming.

How do I know when I've recovered?
I've got several mental health problems and surely I can't just wake up one day and say "oh hey I'm recovered I have no mental health problems," it just isn't possible, which lead me to thinking that there isn't any such thing as recovery, or being completely recovered, I think once you have a mental health problem, you're dealing with it for life, it just seems like you're getting better because you're getting used to living with it.
I wouldn't know how to live without my mental health issues, I wouldn't be me and I get really scared about recovering sometimes because as much as I despise them and they've ruined my life, I couldn't ever push a button that would rid me of them completely.
I suppose it's sad that I've learnt how to live like this and I don't know any better, there just so happens to be easier days and harder days, and it's when a line of easy days comes along you think you're getting somewhere, until 1 bad day comes along to knock you back to square 1.

I always say things such as depression are like cancer, but cancer of the mind.
You can't see it, you can't always see physical signs, it takes lives and there's no cure.
Like cancer, there's treatment, like talking therapy and medication, but no actual cure, it can only be controlled and managed to a certain point,

Some days I get extremely upset and angry with myself because I feel like if I am 'in recovery,' that I am cheating.
I always wanted to get better and be happy on my own terms, but I cannot do that, It's been shown and proved and I hate that, I have to rely on anti-depressants and Propranol for anxiety every single day, without them I couldn't get out of bed and keep myself together, and that really gets to me that I can't live 'normally.'

So the question is, is this it? Is this is far as I can go? Is this me recovered? Because I don't feel happy or normal at all- I feel like getting better doesn't really exist, but learning the 'live with it' skill is the only option.


NARSissist Smokey Eye Kit

My ultimate weakness is a new eyeshadow palette, it doesn't matter if I have the same colours in five other palettes, if it looks nice, I'll buy it. It started off with Naked palettes, which I now totally neglect and don't use (oops,) now my biggest obsession has turned to NARS eyeshadow palettes, from the single duo compacts to the limited edition NARSissist palettes.

One of my favourites from my NARS family has to be the NARSissist Smokey Eye Kit, (£35.00,) which includes three shades, a mini brush and a mini eyeliner, (which was also great.)
The three simple shades give you the opportunity to create a basic but beautiful smokey eye, with a light base shade, crease shade and outer corner shade with a hint of shimmer.
My favourite of the three has to be the shade in the centre, "Bali," which is a medium matte brown with cool tones, amazing pigmentation and a lovely velvety texture.

This kit would be perfect for first timers, if you're not really sure where to start and end with a smokey eye, this is the palette for you, because you can't really do any wrong with it.
This compact would also be perfect for travelling, it's the perfect size and could take you from day to night easily.

The texture of each shadow is very smooth, soft and velvety, the pigmentation does not disappoint and the staying power of a NARS shadow cannot be beaten.


Why I Wear And Love Make-Up

The one thing I hate about the whole beauty industry is the stigma surrounding it, which is that people 'love themselves', or 'think they're beautiful,' but is there really anything wrong with that?
Are we expected as a 'norm' to hate ourselves and dislike how we look?

I can imagine some people find it ridiculous that everyday for work, (in which I sit in an office all day alone) I apply a full face of make-up which takes about 90 minutes, including false lashes everyday, lip liner, eyeshadow, the works.
I'm not trying to impress anyone, I certainly do not 'love' myself or think I'm everything, in fact it's the complete opposite, and when I have a full face of make-up on, I feel a million times better.
Make-up is an art and a creative outlet, I've always been a creative person but I was never really good at painting or drawing or the usual things you think about when you say art, so make-up is the only creative outlet that I have and can do well. It makes me happy, I love searching for it, looking at it, creating looks, applying it, using technique, it's exactly like painting, you start with your blank canvas and apply whatever you want, how you want.

I believe everyone in this world has some kind of coping mechanism that gets them through a week, mine is that every Friday I'll get paid and I'll be able to buy new make-up products, some people get excited about going out clubbing or seeing friends or taking part in hobbies, but friends I've never had many of and hobbies aren't my thing.

Make-up is my war paint, it makes me feel more confident, it makes me feel braver and less paranoid, I can match my make-up to my mood, my outfit, the weather, it's such a versatile art that is both fun, exciting and it's one of the rare things in life that have no rules.


Talking Bases: Le Blanc De Chanel

I'm big on primers and looking after your skin- the idea of wearing a lot of make up and not having that barrier between products and your skin freaks me out.
I always refer to the Hourglass Mineral Veil as my holy grail primer, but at £52.00 a bottle it's not ideal to rely on, so recently I purchased a base from Chanel, "Le Blanc De Chanel" at £33.00, which is a little more purse friendly but still has the luxury feeling to it.

Let's start with how much I love the packaging, from the box to the pump of the bottle.
The liquid comes in a frosted glass bottle, including a pump which gives you small but perfect amounts of product, the colour scheme is very sleek and minimalistic, and the signature Chanel logo is engraved into the top of the lid. (There's also a gorgeously refreshing scent to the product.)

This product is not advertised as a primer exactly, so I didn't expect it to extend the wear of my make up or blur my pores, which no, it isn't great for and if you're looking for a correcting base to really keep your make-up put all day to night, this isn't for you.
However, if you like myself, have other products which play that function for you and you just want glowing, smooth, illuminated skin, this may be a good purchase.
This claims to be multi-use, but really I could only see it as a primer after moisturising before foundation, or alternatively just mixing a few pumps with your foundation, (which i'm really not a fan of doing with any products.)

Le Blanc De Chanel works brilliantly with all of my foundations unlike most primers which I have to alternate between dependent upon the foundation I wish to use.

The product first comes out as a white liquid, which turns invisible once applied to the skin, leaving behind a silky soft, glowing blank canvas.


The Perfect Light Coverage Foundation From Chanel

This foundation has been in my possession since Christmas and I don't know how I've waited this long to talk about how much I love it.
If you have normal or dry skin with little to cover up, this is the foundation for you.

Chanel Vitalumiére Aqua (£31.00,- £33) is an ultra-light foundation that feels almost like water on the skin but perfects a flawless finish with zero cake.
This is the first lightweight light coverage foundation I've had- I never realised that that's all I needed until recently, and this product has made my fall in love with products like tinted moisturiser.
I'm very lucky to have clear, bright skin with no scarring, acne or discolouration because I've always had such a good skincare routine from around twelve years old.
I like to apply this with my fingers best, however, applying it with a brush gives it a teeny little more coverage- it also works a dream on top of my NARS Tinted Moisturiser, the two together give a radiant, dewy medium finish, (and your face smells great!)

The light liquid blends into the skin amazingly, giving a natural, glowy finish that's more like a second skin, it's a 'your skin, but better' product for sure.

My first thoughts when I saw this were about how small it was! The bottle really looks tiny and is smaller than palm of my hand, it almost looks like a travel size product, which isn't ideal considering the price range.
However, a little really goes a long way- and this is proven by the fact I've just hit half the bottle and I've had it since Christmas.
The packaging isn't anything fancy, it's very minimalistic, sleek and modern, however the plastic bottle is very disappointing considering Chanel products are usually presented in glass bottles.

Like most Chanel beauty products, it has a slight scent, it's incredibly refreshing and hasn't irritated my skin at all, it's such a clean but fruity scent that I love to smell at 6:30am.

I'll definitely be re-purchasing this when I eventually run out, it's now a must have in my collection.
The only thing I would change about this foundation is the packaging, if I'm paying £31.00+ I expect a little more luxury from Chanel.
This product has got me wanting to try some other foundations from Chanel, too.

If you've tried any let me know your thoughts!

Summertime Essential, Urban Decay Setting Spray

This product has been lurking around for a very long time but I only just got my hands on it since starting a job in a very hot, small office. (Also since I started going to sweaty nightclubs.)

This Urban Decay Setting Spray (£21.00,) has been my lifeline recently. On very hot days I use it as both a primer and a "veil" once all my make ups applied. I take it to work with me too, and have a spritz every few hours to cool my face down and stop my make up melting off my face. 
When first applied, it leaves my face feeling very wet but it soaks in very quickly and instantly cools me down. 
The spray has no smell, which is a bonus for sensetive skin but I always like a bit of a scent in products. 

I can also skip taking powder to work with me if I have this, it does not mattify (which would make this amazing,) but it takes the shine away a little and stops foundation from melting away. 

This is a product I'll probably be only using trough the summer time, because towards winter my skin turns away from normal and gets dry. 

What are your essential products during the warmer seasons?


Repurchased: NARS Creamy Concealer

Yet another holy grail status product I've adopted and re-purchased, the NARS Radiant Creamy Concealer (£22.00.)

I very much panicked when I started running  low on this last week, so I was instantly online on payday stocking up on this, I browsed through several concealers but none of them made the cut like this. 

In the amazing colour range, I have to use the lightest shade, which I think is called 'Chantilly' and it matches my skin perfectly. I could probably get away with the next shade up, but I like to use this a lot for brightening.
The fact I've repurchased this says a lot, this is the first product I've ever re-purchased and haven't wandered off trying something else, purely because this is everything I want.

This creamy stick will give you medium buildable coverage, but not quite enough to completely hide any huge pimples, but that's not an issue I personally have so that doesn't really matter to me.

I love everything from the sleek packaging to the subtle scent the product  has, the consistency is such a joy to work with and it's great for brightening, so if you're suffering  with dark circles, this may be for you.
I love to use this to sharpen the edges of my eyeshadow and eyebrows, it really makes a brighter area around them, enabling them to stand out even more. 

A little goes a long way, proven by the fact I've owned my first tube since Christmas and  it's only just begun to run low!

It really does what the name says, it's creamy formula is a dream to blend, it never looks cakey or dry on the face or on blemishes, nor does it crease under my eyes.

The small sponge applicator makes it easy to brush on my desired amount of product easily, it's also the perfect size for under eye application, and down the centre of my nose.

To blend this in, I use the Zoeva Concelear Buffer from the Rose Golden Complete Eye Set, an alternative very similar to this which I used previously is the Real Techniques Deluxe Crease Brush. 


Balancing A Blog And A Job (...And Life)

Before I had a full time job I was amazed that people could actually manage to work, blog and generally live and spend time freely, therefore the thought of getting a job made me feel extremely overwhelmed. I was thinking that I would barely have time to breathe, but it turns out there's actually a lot more time in the day than I thought.

I'm lucky enough to have a quiet job even though I'm there 9-5, Monday to Friday, and not being really busy means I have a lot of time to sit in my own office and schedule posts, I know that's really naughty and I do feel guilty, but I'm not doing anything else, so why not?

Most of my posts I actually write/post and schedule at work now, I only do picture taking at home, usually on Sundays or one night after work the weathers good and there's still some light at 5pm.

I'm a big organiser, I love lists, being tidy, planning ahead, so I found some really cute 'to-do' lists and weekly lists from Amanda Inez on her website here.
Her designs are so quirky and visually pleasing that it motivates me to get more things completed.
I'm guilty of making a big deal out of small things, for example, I will worry that I won't have time to take a shower, which would only take me about ten minutes, but I always over exaggerate time and think that I need an hour to carry out such a simple task. (Better to be safe than sorry, right?)
So there for having lists really helps me out and it's super satisfying ticking things off and even more so when your lists complete at the end of the day.

I also find that not setting myself goals such as 'I'll post everyday this week!' helps me more, because I feel that if I don't achieve the goal, it'll really get me down and put me in a blogging rut.

I don't really have a huge social life to begin with, so neither blogging or work has disturbed it. 
Most Friday nights I go out drinking in town or drink in the house with a friend, Saturdays or Sundays are spent out shopping or having a lazy day with Netflix in bed.
After a weekend of alcohol consumption and barely any sleep, I need to motivate myself al over again to begin the week.
Monday is usually my down in the dumps, cant be bothered day and by Tuesday I start getting back to normal.
I've found that having a nice space to blog in i.e, a desk set up makes it a lot easier to want to write than it is when I'm lying in bed.


Worth The Hype? ABH Dipbrow Pomade

A conclusion first, sort of. This product, the Anastasia Beverly Hills Dipbrow Pomade (£15.00.) is hyped up a lot, and as great as it is, it still has it's flaws, so I wouldn't totally agree that it is actually all it's hyped up to be.

  • Really good colour range
  • Great staying power 
  • A little goes a long way
  • Sleek packaging 
  • Not too expensive 
  • Does not look cakey
  • If you smudge it, you're doomed
  • Very hard to use with a larger brush, a tiny brow brush needs to be used
  • Very thick to apply, making a 'gradient' brow very hard to achieve 
I recently produced a post talking about a brow mousse from Tarte and now that I have had both, I think over all I prefer Tarte's option, the only thing they're not winning is the choice of colours available. Both are equally difficult to get your mitts on here in the UK.

So if you're looking for a new brow product and you're thinking about Dipbrow Pomade, I'd say pay the extra money for the Tarte Brow Mousse.


Marc Jacobs Jewellery

Earlier last week I was bought some Marc By Marc Jacobs jewellery pieces for starting a job, I just had to share them with you because I'm in love with them and I suppose this mixes my blog up and puts aside make-up for once.
I really love Marc Jacobs pieces because they're stylish and modern, but everything always has a fun/quirky edge to it and I think that makes high end brands less intimidating. 

First up, the 'Snake Script Necklace,' (£60.00.) This is such a delicate and simple piece of jewellery but it's so beautiful and really makes a change to a basic outfit.
The necklace reads 'Marc' in a script type font, and on the 'M' are two tiny jewels to make up the 'snakes' eyes.
The chain is incredibly delicate, but the fastening hook has the Marc Jacobs logo engraved into it, and it's attention to detail like this that really makes me admire something.
The necklace came from Harvey Nichols online, gift wrapped beautifully and included a little dust bag for the necklace. 

These stud earrings for about £50.00 are Rose Gold coloured, engraved with the Marc Jacobs logo and designed with a turn lock in the centre of the stud. Attention to detail again with these, even the backs/butterfly's of the earrings are engraved with Marc, which I just thought was a really lovely touch. The earrings came from Selfridges online.

The watch I've actually had since Christmas time, but I wear this religiously everyday and it matches perfectly with the other pieces, this black leather strap watch is around £185.00.


Non-Makeup Beauty Favourites

Besides all the make up, I'm also really into looking after my skin and body in general. There's a few products that I just couldn't go a day without using-even though it can all be a bit of a drag, it's worth it in the end.

To take care of my skin, I'm currently loving:

1. Palmers Cocoa Butter Formula With Vitamin E (£4.00),
which softens dry skin, provides long lasting moisture, it also claims to sooth marks and tone the skin.
This is the best body moisturiser for me, I've tried several but now I wouldn't change, my skins sensitive and reacts to scents or harsh ingredients, but this is Paraben free and barely has a scent.
A little goes a long way and it soaks in very quickly considering how deeply moisturising it is. I don't feel the need to use this everyday in Summer, but in Winter when my skins dry I'll use it every night after a shower. I love that this cream soothes marks because there's certainly a lot of scarring from self harm in the past on my body I would love to be able to tone them down.

2. Along the lines of that, I couldn't be without a bottle of Bio Oil, (£4.00-£20.00.)
I try to use this twice a day on my left arm to try and get rid of scars, I also like to apply it to scars on my face where I've very naughtily picked at a blemish.
I also like to occasionally apply to my thighs to prevent me from getting any stretch marks since I am still growing.

3. Tangle Teezer, (£10.00-£12.00)
I have very thick hair meaning that it knots and tangles easily, especially if I'm out all day and it's being blown about in the wind. My hair is also very fragile and damaged, although it is getting a lot better recently.
I wouldn't ever bare going back to using a normal hair brush, a Tangle Teezer makes my hair super soft and shiny and gets rid of all the knotting without feeling like my scalp is being pulled out.

Let me know if you've tried any of these products and what you're currently relying on to keep your body looking good!


Smashbox VS Yves Saint Laurent

YSL recently released the Touché Eclat Blur Primer (£31.50) as pretty as it looks and however much the beautiful bottle and golden box tempts you, don't be fooled, after using both a lot I've realised that this YSL option is exactly the same as Smashbox's Photo Finish Primer (£25.00)

Both primers have the exact same texture, which is quite a thick liquid that can feel a little much on the face. The finish the primers give you, again is pretty much identical, I actually think the Smashbox primer leaves my skin smoother than the Yves Saint Laurent. 

They both have a slight scent, which isn't too overpowering but it's definitely more noticeable in the YSL option. 
They both work great with the same foundations and neither are too fantastic at hiding pores. 
They both sit the same on top of moisturiser, and take around three minutes to soak in.

So if you're after the YSL primer, save yourself five pounds and opt for the Smashbox option which is probably 1 advantage above the YSL.
The only downsides to the Smashbox primer are the cheap crappy looking packaging, but I suppose that's where that extra five pounds is in the Touché Eclat.


An Ode To The Tarte Amazonian Clay Eyeshadow Palette

Holy Grail status? Most definitely.
I was lusting after the Tarte Amazonian Clay Palette for such a long time and I'd convinced myself I'd never own it because the one place in the UK that stock Tarte (QVC, can we sort that out please? They charge separate shipping for every item in your order!), had none of these left for such a long time, on a whim one day I looked on the website just generally browsing and to my surprise this was displayed at introductory price on the home page, as you can imagine, my face light up and my card was straight out of my purse.

This palette, includes a double sided brush, huge mirror, lovely packaging and twelve gorgeous matte eyeshadows. (A mini primer would be a nice touch, just saying.)
I'm still undecided between this palette and NARS' 'And God Created The Woman' palette as my all time favourite.

The pigmentation of all twelve shades is unbeatable, one swipe of any shade and you'll see excellent colour pay off.
The texture of all of the shadows is incredibly soft, velvet like and a joy to apply to my lids, no dragging, no layering up colours, and despite this, they don't make my eyelids feel weighed down.
There's a great mixture of colours, from barely there nudes, to sandy tones, darks, purples, and jet black, this palette would easily take you from day to night, creating either a soft and gentle nude eye or a dark, bold smokey finish.
The huge mirror in this palette would also make it perfect for travelling or doing your make-up on the go.

The brush included isn't great but isn't completely useless like the little sponge applicators you'll find in a Chanel or Givenchy eyeshadow compact. One side is great for packing colour on as a base, the other, slightly thinner and lighter head is alright for blending or applying a transition colour, I'd say it's too 'big' for the crease if you like a sharp finish like myself.

If I had to throw away all my eye palettes and only keep one, this is definitely the one I'd be savouring. 

I'm pretty sure these are limited, so if you can, get your hands on one whilst you still can, I promise you won't regret it.
It's amazing value for money from such a stunning brand. 

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